The Concussion

 Hello Babaji, I know you're seeing this.

I hope all is well for you. I have not been feeling too well lately- truthfully, although I am "healed" from my concussion, I still can see its impacts in my academic life. I don't think I have ever struggled to learn. I feel that if I took the classes I took in high school right now, I would be performing similarly. I feel like my ability to learn post concussion has genuinely decreased at it is really so painful. Doing the necessary work in order to know the material causes feelings of stabs on my brain. It feels like my brain is being squeezed and then let go, but as it's being let go, there are these needles poking into it. It hurts so much but I am trying my best. I don't think people realize how much concussions really impact, and because of additional physical trauma to my brain from YEARS ago, it doesn't make the situation any easier. I have tried to look past it but I don't necessarily feel like me sometimes. I feel that I have to try harder to do something I could have done so easily a year ago. 

I currently am studying for the final but this is just so much stress I do not know how I am to overcome this. I can't wait for this to be over.

Okie, I love you baba. <3